It's Written in the Sand

It's something that has taken over my cousins, friends and other family members... The planner addictions. And just let me stand up and say, "Hi my name is Lillian and I have a planner addiction too."

Yes I managed to save up enough for my planner. I waited for a long time thinking I wouldn't get sucked into the madness but I did. I use it wayyy more than I thought I would. I am enjoying looking around online for different things to put in my planner. I am an odd ball and I like a more whimsical planner.

When I say whimsical, I mean it. I have quotes about mermaids, fairies, Secret Gardens, Disney etc. I love it. It's one of my favorite things I have ever bought myself. I look forward to looking in it and planning each day.

One of the things I was so excited was my charm for my planner. It looks like this one; Compass Planner Charm. Yes my planner has that much of a theme going with it.

Now when I purchase my planner. I got the Mermaid cover one. I love it! I told them I wanted mine more blue-purple (Erin Condren Website calls it Iris).

Also from the Erin Condren website I purchased:

Elastic bands - classic

Accessories -designer sticker sheets -summer series

Coil clips

Pen Holder

I loved these extras I purchased but the other extra is my absolute favorite... 

My second cover...

Reality blooms -roses

I love it in ways I cannot describe. It just the red roses that I just adore. 

I really haven't bought to many things though. 

The stickers I have bought have been from Walmart, Target, Hobby Lobby, Michael's, Dollar Tree, and Dollar General. And the places from online are Smile Makers, Oriental Trading, and Stickers Galore.

As far as Washi Tape goes:

Mermaid Green - Deco Paper Tape

Sea Creatures Japanese Washi Tape

Summer Sea Shell Washi Tape

Sea Shell Yano design debut series washi

Blue Wave Decorative

Blue Ocean Waves Tape

Big Washi Tape Roll - Alice in Wonderland

Disney Tinkerbell Fairy Washi Tape

Starfish Washi Tape with Sand Dollars

Hansel & Gretel Design

Herb Tea Design

Tinkery Bell Disney Fairies Tape

Summer Fishes Washi Tape

Washi tape - Fairy tales

Garden Washi Tape

Yes I went washi crazy but I am not alone at all.

As far as other things that I have bought:

Staedtler Triplus Fineliner Pens

Ariel the Little Mermaid Post it Notepad

I will update everyone as my planner changes and grows with me. 

Growing Up

I never thought I would be this happy...

I have had miscarriage since getting married, but we are going stronger than ever. Wayne and I were both shocked to learn that I had a miscarriage. (Thanks body I blessed out Clear Blue for nothing.) We stood around a day talking about it and crying. But after a friend told me to give myself a just a day to complain and cry about it I felt better, because that's exactly what I did. (Thank you +Odette). I am only writing about it here to let people know. When people bring it up now I no longer hurt or pine for them to talk about it. 

Wayne and I have moved on and we have fixed our focus on more important things. People think we are being insensitive to people who are infertile or have multiple miscarriage. What they don't understand is that this is my third one, but it is my first one with Wayne. So for what anyone knows I may not be able to give birth to children. But that isn't stopping me from being a mom. 

This little one is what makes me world stop instantly. Cry, laugh, coo or say Mama... My world stops so I can listen more carefully. She is funny because she doesn't take to normal things. Her friend Eloise makes her giggle and laugh more and more. We love spending time with Aunt MayAn Uncle Fankie and Elloee. 

As for me and Wayne. We have been decorating our new house and preparing for everything. We have two dates a week. It feels good to finally find where I belong. I no longer feel like an outsider trying to fit in with everyone. I just fit. Thank God for everything you have given me. I know how blessed I am. 

I mean hello, Erica and Mary Ann have me cleaning house... Who would have thought?

Fresh Start Challenge Day 30: Then, Now, and Soon

Dear 15 year old self:

You really don't have it so bad. Sure you go to all girls school but it's not so bad I promise. We did good only inhaling once on the weed. Bad job on picking up smoking though. And eh on the drinking. It's not terrible like the smoking was on us.

Don't worry about the acne scars trust me there will be other scars to come that are far worse and way more embarrassing. I'm glad that you made it. And seriously grades don't make the person.


Dear me:

I know I give you a hard time on yourself all the time. But in order to be where we are now I had to be. We've come a long way in the past two years, got away from him, stop smoking, and got a better job. You have gotten over the miscarriage and the scariness of being alone. Now you are married, have a precious daughter and are building a new house. You exercise and attempt to eat right and you are finally hanging out with a good crowd.


Dear future me:

Well you have done the best you can. You've cried, screamed, and laughed. Don't stop dreaming and believing in things. Move on through life with the spirit of being 20 again. Yes you have fine lines and have babies and children that keep you from a nice clean house that was built 15 years ago but hey that's life. You wanted it like I want it. Lol just remember who to keep first and love Wayne with the rest of your heart.

Fresh Start Challenge Day 29: Shotgun

Mrs. Winthrop was peeking out of her window again.

She felt like she heard something for the 30th time.

Nothing. Absolutely nothing again.

She finally went outside. Her eyes gave sight to a snake.

Her eyes searched for something to kill it with while she tried not to move.

"Boom." The snake's head was blasted off with perfect precision.

Mrs. Winthrop only nodded, because her voice was lost on her.

She looked up at her neighbor Hunter.

"Guess it's a good thing we both look out our window a lot."

Fresh Start Challenge Day 28: Can We Come In?

This is so not my house (I wish we could build a safe room like this. Now my family that lives across the road from us has something similar to this.

We don't really have an emergency plans but that is changing when we get back from our mission trip and we are having to stay with friends and family. We will have plenty time to work on emergency plans. So soon we will know what to do when warnings or alarms sound.

Fresh Start Challenge Day 27: You Gotta Have Faith

First I have to explain about the above picture... She was chasing a duck after the reception today and all I could think about was something very inappropriate.... +Bridgitte will appreciate this.

WARNING LANGUAGE!

So at any rate Faith means the world to me. First God lives in my heart, Wayne is most of my heart, then there is Faith, and the rest of my family. 

Faith was so unexpected in my life. She showed Wayne that he need to work in his life and not think he had everything made just because he was a preacher. He is interesting man and so his daughter is just as curious. I may be blood related to her in some way even though she is not mine but in my heart she is completely mine.

I love her curiosity and her little ways. 

Fresh Start Challenge Day 26: Where There's a Will

Omg... He is a pirate and hot pirate at that. And his facial expressions rival those of Jack Sparrow!

I love it when he is fighting you can see the passion and the fury in his eyes. Please don't start with me when he has on the bandanna. I'll be melting so there is no point to talking to me. Also that voice? Drip. That's the sound of me melting or wet one, not sure which and could possibly be both.