Fresh Start Challenge Day 28: Can We Come In?

This is so not my house (I wish we could build a safe room like this. Now my family that lives across the road from us has something similar to this.

We don't really have an emergency plans but that is changing when we get back from our mission trip and we are having to stay with friends and family. We will have plenty time to work on emergency plans. So soon we will know what to do when warnings or alarms sound.

Fresh Start Challenge Day 27: You Gotta Have Faith

First I have to explain about the above picture... She was chasing a duck after the reception today and all I could think about was something very inappropriate.... +Bridgitte will appreciate this.

WARNING LANGUAGE!

So at any rate Faith means the world to me. First God lives in my heart, Wayne is most of my heart, then there is Faith, and the rest of my family. 

Faith was so unexpected in my life. She showed Wayne that he need to work in his life and not think he had everything made just because he was a preacher. He is interesting man and so his daughter is just as curious. I may be blood related to her in some way even though she is not mine but in my heart she is completely mine.

I love her curiosity and her little ways. 

Fresh Start Challenge Day 26: Where There's a Will

Omg... He is a pirate and hot pirate at that. And his facial expressions rival those of Jack Sparrow!

I love it when he is fighting you can see the passion and the fury in his eyes. Please don't start with me when he has on the bandanna. I'll be melting so there is no point to talking to me. Also that voice? Drip. That's the sound of me melting or wet one, not sure which and could possibly be both.

Fresh Start Challenge Day 25: Sincerely Lillian

Dear Charlene aka Mom,

Thank you for taking me in when you didn't have do so. I am grateful for you caring for me all my life and giving me everything I need and want in life. I was very privileged to live as your daughter. You gave me the most out of my life and really made me feel like your daughter and not an extra.




Dear Pappie,

Meeting you for the first time totally changed my life. That's when I started believing in God. You were the first one to really make me think about having faith and about the Bible. The journal you gave me is completely filled out but is still beside my bed because it helps me through so much in life now. Thank you for showing me how to walk in faith.


Dear Faith,

You changed my world the moment you were left with Wayne. You showed me how being a mom felt and I cannot get enough of that feeling; especially since I had lost my own. You make me feel like I can save the world because you come running to me with your small fixable problems and then you give me that carefree grin and I lose all bad and negative thoughts. I love you as if you are my true own and nothing will separate us as a family again.


Dear Mom & Dad,

I've been wanting to write you for a year now. I wonder if I am the person you want me to be. I know you looked down on me and see the bad choices I have made. I know I concern you all the time. I do feel like I am doing better in the since of making better decisions. I know when to tell people no now and my backbone is cement strong now. Thank you for giving me life and I cannot wait to meet you one day.

Fresh Start Challenge Day 24: Doors Open

Tired with no sleep for over 38 hours and I get asked if I want to work the night shift. I told them no that I was turning in my two weeks notice.

I was scared to death because I worked out that notice not knowing where I was going to go. The reality that I just walked away from a management job scared me. I called my grandfather I had just met a few months before for the first time.

"Lillian, you did the right thing if it was interfering with your health."

I still didn't feel good about it. I prayed with my Pappie as he prayed to show me where I truly should be.

I went to pick Carolina and Hunter up from work and boom. Madame asked to speak with me.

"Hunter said you have a psychology degree and human resources degree."

My world flipped right back into place. I remember walking out and calling Pappie and he prayed again this time Thanking God for the opportunity.

Fresh Start Challenge Day 23: Where I am Yours and You are Mine

1. I have become obsessed with Malificent 
2. I am about to live in China for almost a month and while we are gone our house now is being demolished and we are rebuilding.
3. I am excited about going to Orlando in September!
4. I like to wear black all the time.
5. My favorite song right now is Oceans by Hillsong.

Fresh Start Challenge Day 22: Caged

"What if I had never got out?"

In really dark times I often wonder if I would even be alive if I hadn't of escaped. That's the thought that manages to escape from my brain and into my mind to bounce around.

I wonder how creative he would have gotten had he received more time with me. How many more scars would cover me or would I have lost a limb or feeling in another part of my body.

The scars and the lost of feeling in parts of my body is a constant reminder of what my life was once like and just how far I have come since then.