Tea Time Tink

It's a typical Monday here at my house...

1. Get up
2. Shower
3. Get dressed
4. Eat
5. Get Faith ready for the day
6. Errands for the house
7. Errands for Faith
8. Errands for myself
9. Errands for Wayne
10. Errands for the church
11. Answer my text messages....

HOLY CRAPOLA!!!! 

"Omg Wayne does this say what I think it says?!?!" "Yes it does!" 

-Insert squealing conversation and wreckless driving on my part-

1. Arrive at airport
2. Squeal some more
3. Cry
4. Squeeze
5. Squeal some more

Hunter is home! It is unreal how excited I was to see her. It has been way too long! Seriously like this is worse than London. Maybe it's because we had a whole year together between the two where Hunter was the one that I could go to keep me sane. She always gives level headed advice. 

Anyhow, she is only here for two nights because they have tickets and passes to go see One Direction in Nashville. Regardless of the reason, I am so excited to see her office light lit up tonight. Seeing that sight really makes me happy. It also makes me realize that she inspires me to go after my dreams and passions. Hello she just got promoted at Disney! 

Saying that I am proud of her doesn't cover it. Hunter deserves this more than anyone I know. Sure she has a few bucks in the bank but is that really so bad when she has a heart of gold? No it's not. It's one of those things where if you think she is bad, I don't care to know you. 

That about sums up my day. It was a day filled with many blessings. 

Walgreens, Walmart, Sephora, and Ulta

I have had this post for awhile adding to it here and there. I am not great with hauls because I buy spontaneously! And it's rare for me to splurge but lately it's been hitting me pretty hard because so much in my life has been changing and I like to look my best because then I feel my best. 

The song above has been stuck in my head all afternoon. I decided that it was time to do some shopping---Bad idea. School starts back for many this week and I didn't think of that. I did however have a wonderful time with my daughter. I have never done a haul post so bear with me while I take this on. 

Walmart

Shape 'n Tape Washi Sheets - I got the Teal, Red and Gold. I need to get some punches.

Washi Tape - The variations I scored are; Fish, Cooking, Shell, and Pumpkin.

Glitter Washi Tape - I only got the pink.

Daily Flash Washi Tape - Tropical Sherbet, Words & Arrows, Squirrel and Holly Jolly

Baby Bump Washi Tape - This is sooo cute!

Hard Candy Hard Candy So Baked Sculpting Trio 3 X A Lady - I was needing a cheap blush.

Hard Candy Sheer Envy Illuminating Primer - Perfect for helping keeping my highlighter on.

Hard Candy Eye Def Glitter Eyeshadow - Liar, What Sandy Says Goes, and Crystal Palace is the three colors I bought.

Organix Australian Teatree Shampoo - I am very excited to try this! I love the smell of Teatree so this shouldn't disappointment me.

Organix Ever Straight Brazilian Keratin Therapy Conditioner - Oh this smells soooo good!

Hard Candy Meteor Eyes Baked Meteor Eyeshadow - I bought all four colors.

Hard Candy Lash Tinsel Mascara - Again I bought them all except the pink and purple.

Hard Candy Stroke Of Gorgeous Felt Tip Liner - I only bought the black one.

Sephora

Disney Collection Ariel Mermaid's Song 4 Piece Lip Gloss Set - I am in love with this! Omg it has stunning colors in it!

Urban Decay Cannonball Ultra Waterproof Mascara - I was needing some more waterproof mascara and I think this is the best I have found so far that isn't drugstore!

Too Faced Pardon My French Set - I love the products in this set. I am a huge fan of Too Faced.

Walgreens

Disney Ariel Organizer - Anything Little Mermaid that Walgreens had I basically bought it.

Disney Ariel Lash Kit 1, with Free Adhesive - I don't always wear fake eyelashes like my sister but I can try them out!

Disney Ariel Lash Kit 3, with Free Adhesive - They had three different sets and I bought two of the three.

Conair Disney Ariel Elastics Assorted - Omg! I love these at first sight!

e.l.f. Disney Ariel Eye Collection Gift Set - Different kinds of shades and they are from e.l.f.

Conair Disney Ariel Crochet Headwrap - Again I fell in love with the product at first sight! 

Disney Ariel Round Top - I like this case for actual make up!

Disney Ariel Pencil Case - I bought two of these and stuck an extra charm on the zipper so I can tell my make up brushes from my pens for my planner. 

e.l.f. Disney Ariel Lip Stain & Super Glossy Lip Shine Gift Set - I love love love love this! Excellent little gift set. 

Conair Disney Ariel Wrapped Headband - I love this! It's very mermaidish!

Disney Frozen Lip Balm Fruity Flavor - I bought this knowing it was gimmicky but I still like it!

e.l.f. Disney Ariel Bronzer & Mini Kabuki Brush Gift Set - I was very excited about this. 

e.l.f. Disney Snow White Beauty Book Gift Set - I love this book! Omg this is great! 

e.l.f. Disney Ariel Crystal Brush Gift Set - Wasn't so sure but they are normal e.l.f. brushes. 

Ulta

STILA Eyes Are The Window Eye Shadow Palettes - I fell in love with these colors. They are just gorgeous and absolutely perfect.

NYX COSMETICS Wicked Dreams Eyeshadow Palette - A lot like the Return of Sexy from Two Faced. 

Through the Wires to My Head

My music + Shuffle + Plus Why = Whacky Fun

I Don't Feel Like Dancing - Scissor Sisters

Nothing like some Just Dance with the neighborhood. Seriously this song is very hard to get a 5 on and let me tell I was freaking determined to do just that. I now can do it without the game. Plus it's one of the those feel good song. The kind where you roll the top down and just sing like you are on the open road. 

I Melt - Rascal Flatts

I know what this song is finally talking about because that's how I feel about Wayne. It's not just sex with us. It's the coy looks across the room. It's watching him sing while cooking. It's me talking about Harry Potter to him that means the world to us. It's our own little world. It's the feeling of throwing the gaming sole in the goodwill and grinning at each other from the sheets. Trust me, I melt. 

Work - The Saturdays

First of all this song reminds me that I am worth working for in a relationship. Not as a wife because that's ridiculous. I want him to work at our relationship. Thank heavens Wayne does. He counsels people before they get married so it's a good thing he knows how to work a relationship.

City Love - John Mayer

Growing up in some of the biggest cities in the US I understand this song. "Falling asleep to the sounds of sirens." That line is so true! I am glad I found love in the mountains above the city. It's amazing. No city glossy magazine for us.

Paulette

Link to the Song

Paulette gave me this song. It was wrote for her and Clairé's relationship. It is amazing. The guy might be a douche but the songs he wrote for them are amazing. 

A Little Bit - Jessica Simpson

As far as this song being inspirational. I work out to it. But realizing that I as I listen to it. It's basically another work for the relationship. Hm I think I am finding a trend in my music. 

On and On - Chasen

This song inspires me to remind myself of Joyce Meyer's words, "Want to confuse the enemy when you have the biggest problem you’ve ever had in your life? Instead of worrying—worship, sing, praise and give thanks to God. Then watch and see what happens in your life." It is very true! 

Clairé

Link to the Song

I was amazed by these songs. I will admit the Paulette's song is slightly better. But both of these are amazing. Even if Paulette and Clairé's relationship is over. But they have a friendship that no one can touch. 

Venus - Bananarama 

This song reminds me to put for the extra effort to show stopping gorgeous! Both Wayne and I love this song. I love working out to it and getting ready to it. Cat fight ready is what I call it. 

Paralyze - Tila Tequila 

I do not know if this song really inspires me. It just reminds me to calm down when I am upset. It does remind me of my past relationships. Not that it's something I want to remember. 

Skips ~ Not Fragile - Christina Grimmie and Familiar Taste of Poison - Halestorm

It's Written in the Sand

It's something that has taken over my cousins, friends and other family members... The planner addictions. And just let me stand up and say, "Hi my name is Lillian and I have a planner addiction too."

Yes I managed to save up enough for my planner. I waited for a long time thinking I wouldn't get sucked into the madness but I did. I use it wayyy more than I thought I would. I am enjoying looking around online for different things to put in my planner. I am an odd ball and I like a more whimsical planner.

When I say whimsical, I mean it. I have quotes about mermaids, fairies, Secret Gardens, Disney etc. I love it. It's one of my favorite things I have ever bought myself. I look forward to looking in it and planning each day.

One of the things I was so excited was my charm for my planner. It looks like this one; Compass Planner Charm. Yes my planner has that much of a theme going with it.

Now when I purchase my planner. I got the Mermaid cover one. I love it! I told them I wanted mine more blue-purple (Erin Condren Website calls it Iris).

Also from the Erin Condren website I purchased:

Elastic bands - classic

Accessories -designer sticker sheets -summer series

Coil clips

Pen Holder

I loved these extras I purchased but the other extra is my absolute favorite... 

My second cover...

Reality blooms -roses

I love it in ways I cannot describe. It just the red roses that I just adore. 

I really haven't bought to many things though. 

The stickers I have bought have been from Walmart, Target, Hobby Lobby, Michael's, Dollar Tree, and Dollar General. And the places from online are Smile Makers, Oriental Trading, and Stickers Galore.

As far as Washi Tape goes:

Mermaid Green - Deco Paper Tape

Sea Creatures Japanese Washi Tape

Summer Sea Shell Washi Tape

Sea Shell Yano design debut series washi

Blue Wave Decorative

Blue Ocean Waves Tape

Big Washi Tape Roll - Alice in Wonderland

Disney Tinkerbell Fairy Washi Tape

Starfish Washi Tape with Sand Dollars

Hansel & Gretel Design

Herb Tea Design

Tinkery Bell Disney Fairies Tape

Summer Fishes Washi Tape

Washi tape - Fairy tales

Garden Washi Tape

Yes I went washi crazy but I am not alone at all.

As far as other things that I have bought:

Staedtler Triplus Fineliner Pens

Ariel the Little Mermaid Post it Notepad

I will update everyone as my planner changes and grows with me. 

Growing Up

I never thought I would be this happy...

I have had miscarriage since getting married, but we are going stronger than ever. Wayne and I were both shocked to learn that I had a miscarriage. (Thanks body I blessed out Clear Blue for nothing.) We stood around a day talking about it and crying. But after a friend told me to give myself a just a day to complain and cry about it I felt better, because that's exactly what I did. (Thank you +Odette). I am only writing about it here to let people know. When people bring it up now I no longer hurt or pine for them to talk about it. 

Wayne and I have moved on and we have fixed our focus on more important things. People think we are being insensitive to people who are infertile or have multiple miscarriage. What they don't understand is that this is my third one, but it is my first one with Wayne. So for what anyone knows I may not be able to give birth to children. But that isn't stopping me from being a mom. 

This little one is what makes me world stop instantly. Cry, laugh, coo or say Mama... My world stops so I can listen more carefully. She is funny because she doesn't take to normal things. Her friend Eloise makes her giggle and laugh more and more. We love spending time with Aunt MayAn Uncle Fankie and Elloee. 

As for me and Wayne. We have been decorating our new house and preparing for everything. We have two dates a week. It feels good to finally find where I belong. I no longer feel like an outsider trying to fit in with everyone. I just fit. Thank God for everything you have given me. I know how blessed I am. 

I mean hello, Erica and Mary Ann have me cleaning house... Who would have thought?

Fresh Start Challenge Day 30: Then, Now, and Soon

Dear 15 year old self:

You really don't have it so bad. Sure you go to all girls school but it's not so bad I promise. We did good only inhaling once on the weed. Bad job on picking up smoking though. And eh on the drinking. It's not terrible like the smoking was on us.

Don't worry about the acne scars trust me there will be other scars to come that are far worse and way more embarrassing. I'm glad that you made it. And seriously grades don't make the person.


Dear me:

I know I give you a hard time on yourself all the time. But in order to be where we are now I had to be. We've come a long way in the past two years, got away from him, stop smoking, and got a better job. You have gotten over the miscarriage and the scariness of being alone. Now you are married, have a precious daughter and are building a new house. You exercise and attempt to eat right and you are finally hanging out with a good crowd.


Dear future me:

Well you have done the best you can. You've cried, screamed, and laughed. Don't stop dreaming and believing in things. Move on through life with the spirit of being 20 again. Yes you have fine lines and have babies and children that keep you from a nice clean house that was built 15 years ago but hey that's life. You wanted it like I want it. Lol just remember who to keep first and love Wayne with the rest of your heart.

Fresh Start Challenge Day 29: Shotgun

Mrs. Winthrop was peeking out of her window again.

She felt like she heard something for the 30th time.

Nothing. Absolutely nothing again.

She finally went outside. Her eyes gave sight to a snake.

Her eyes searched for something to kill it with while she tried not to move.

"Boom." The snake's head was blasted off with perfect precision.

Mrs. Winthrop only nodded, because her voice was lost on her.

She looked up at her neighbor Hunter.

"Guess it's a good thing we both look out our window a lot."

Fresh Start Challenge Day 28: Can We Come In?

This is so not my house (I wish we could build a safe room like this. Now my family that lives across the road from us has something similar to this.

We don't really have an emergency plans but that is changing when we get back from our mission trip and we are having to stay with friends and family. We will have plenty time to work on emergency plans. So soon we will know what to do when warnings or alarms sound.

Fresh Start Challenge Day 27: You Gotta Have Faith

First I have to explain about the above picture... She was chasing a duck after the reception today and all I could think about was something very inappropriate.... +Bridgitte will appreciate this.

WARNING LANGUAGE!

So at any rate Faith means the world to me. First God lives in my heart, Wayne is most of my heart, then there is Faith, and the rest of my family. 

Faith was so unexpected in my life. She showed Wayne that he need to work in his life and not think he had everything made just because he was a preacher. He is interesting man and so his daughter is just as curious. I may be blood related to her in some way even though she is not mine but in my heart she is completely mine.

I love her curiosity and her little ways. 

Fresh Start Challenge Day 26: Where There's a Will

Omg... He is a pirate and hot pirate at that. And his facial expressions rival those of Jack Sparrow!

I love it when he is fighting you can see the passion and the fury in his eyes. Please don't start with me when he has on the bandanna. I'll be melting so there is no point to talking to me. Also that voice? Drip. That's the sound of me melting or wet one, not sure which and could possibly be both.

Fresh Start Challenge Day 25: Sincerely Lillian

Dear Charlene aka Mom,

Thank you for taking me in when you didn't have do so. I am grateful for you caring for me all my life and giving me everything I need and want in life. I was very privileged to live as your daughter. You gave me the most out of my life and really made me feel like your daughter and not an extra.




Dear Pappie,

Meeting you for the first time totally changed my life. That's when I started believing in God. You were the first one to really make me think about having faith and about the Bible. The journal you gave me is completely filled out but is still beside my bed because it helps me through so much in life now. Thank you for showing me how to walk in faith.


Dear Faith,

You changed my world the moment you were left with Wayne. You showed me how being a mom felt and I cannot get enough of that feeling; especially since I had lost my own. You make me feel like I can save the world because you come running to me with your small fixable problems and then you give me that carefree grin and I lose all bad and negative thoughts. I love you as if you are my true own and nothing will separate us as a family again.


Dear Mom & Dad,

I've been wanting to write you for a year now. I wonder if I am the person you want me to be. I know you looked down on me and see the bad choices I have made. I know I concern you all the time. I do feel like I am doing better in the since of making better decisions. I know when to tell people no now and my backbone is cement strong now. Thank you for giving me life and I cannot wait to meet you one day.

Fresh Start Challenge Day 24: Doors Open

Tired with no sleep for over 38 hours and I get asked if I want to work the night shift. I told them no that I was turning in my two weeks notice.

I was scared to death because I worked out that notice not knowing where I was going to go. The reality that I just walked away from a management job scared me. I called my grandfather I had just met a few months before for the first time.

"Lillian, you did the right thing if it was interfering with your health."

I still didn't feel good about it. I prayed with my Pappie as he prayed to show me where I truly should be.

I went to pick Carolina and Hunter up from work and boom. Madame asked to speak with me.

"Hunter said you have a psychology degree and human resources degree."

My world flipped right back into place. I remember walking out and calling Pappie and he prayed again this time Thanking God for the opportunity.

Fresh Start Challenge Day 23: Where I am Yours and You are Mine

1. I have become obsessed with Malificent 
2. I am about to live in China for almost a month and while we are gone our house now is being demolished and we are rebuilding.
3. I am excited about going to Orlando in September!
4. I like to wear black all the time.
5. My favorite song right now is Oceans by Hillsong.

Fresh Start Challenge Day 22: Caged

"What if I had never got out?"

In really dark times I often wonder if I would even be alive if I hadn't of escaped. That's the thought that manages to escape from my brain and into my mind to bounce around.

I wonder how creative he would have gotten had he received more time with me. How many more scars would cover me or would I have lost a limb or feeling in another part of my body.

The scars and the lost of feeling in parts of my body is a constant reminder of what my life was once like and just how far I have come since then.

Fresh Start Challenge Day 21: How Hard Is It?

I don't care if you leave the toilet seat up, and I don't care if you move the remote. I also don't care if you leave dirty dishes in the sink. BUT PLEASE GOD CHANGE THE TV BACK TO TV WHEN YOU ARE THROUGH GAMING!!!

Wayne, I love to death (and that may come soon if he doesn't learn this) but he games all the time. I realize he has never lived with anyone else. I rarely game and I don't care to game. I like to watch the Tivo and Netflix and yet I manage to take the extra three steps before walking away from the TV.

We had this nice long argument this morning. We will see what good it did. But regardless I do love the big ape.

Fresh Start Challenge Day 20: Who We Are

Sometimes to get what you want the most, you have to do what you want the least.

I love the person I’ve become, because I fought to become her.

You know life is worth the struggle when you look back on what you lost and realize what you have now is way better than before.

The thing is, you make me happy. You walked in when it seemed like the rest of the world walked out. You were there, you are there. I never need to pretend when I’m around you, when I’m talking, when I’m with you. You’re hilarious; you make me laugh all the time. You seem to pick up when something’s wrong before everyone else does and you know exactly what to say to make it all okay, and even if it’s only for a little while, it helps. The thing is, I love you. Thank you for everything.

Crazy around my friends. Classy around guys. A freak around my family, but at a complete loss for words around you.

A woman's strength isn't just about how much she can handle before she breaks. It's about how much she must handle after she's broken.

She is clothed with strength and dignity and laughs without fear of the future - Proverbs 31:25

Where there is great love there are always miracles - Willa Cather

If God is all you have, you have all you need. - John 14:8

A girl expecting rescue never learns to save herself. - The Forgotten Garden

If you continuously compete with others, you become bitter, but if you continuously compete with yourself, you become better.

Your circle of friends must match your own aspirations and dreams, or you will find little support when you need it most. -Leon Brown

Pain doesn't just show up in our lives for no reason. It's a sign that something in our lives needs to change.

We all carry these things inside that no one else can see. They hold us down like anchors, they drown us out at sea.

Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we're here we should dance.

Selfish people lose  so much in life, because even when they realize they are wrong, they don't know how to ask for forgiveness or show regrets.

Be thankful for all the trouble you don't have.

I loved you at your darkest. - Romans 5:8

"She turner her can'ts into cans and her dreams into plans."

Fresh Start Challenge 19: Just the Chicken Sandwich

Seriously I can be breaking down and in the middle of it someone offers me Chick Fil A and I'm dried up. My mom realized that early so she would always have Chikfila ready for me after doctor visits or anything like that. 

Oh and if you haven't tried their new salads... GET THEM! Freaking amazing!

Fresh Start Challenge Day 18: Time Has Come To Go On Your Own

My inspirations to blog are quite easy!

+Hunter

+Mary Ann 

+Odette

+Jessica 

+Carolina 

And a few others ones on Blog Lovin'.

I never believed I would have my own blog but here it is and I love it!

Fresh Start Challenge Post Day 17: The Fairies Do It

Amy Brown

Spring - God I HATE Spring! (Can I please, do what I hate about spring!?! No? Okay.)

• Tulips
• Honeysuckles
• Softball Season
• Babies every where!

Summer 

• Surfing
• Coconut and Pineapple Everything
• Kabobs
• Tiki torches

Winter 

• Holiday crafts
• Boots/ Fur clothing
• Decorating while singing
• Leaving footprints in the snow

Fall

• Sweaters
• Leather leggings
• The smells
• The colors

Fresh Start Challenge Day 16: My 1st Mother's Day

It was an amazing day for me! One I wasn't prepare or expecting. I woke up to my phone going off around 6 AM with Wayne telling me he was coming upstairs (I live with my sister still) and that I had better be decent. I, of course, wasn't.

He brought McDonald's and Faith brought me presents, cards, flowers and a balloon. My present was a Pandora bracelet. This one is the one I have been wanting. This is the complete silver one. The one I had been wearing was leather. This is gorgeous! I love the mommy charm he bought and the Fairy and Faith one.

We had a special mother's tea after church and it was fantastic. I loved it more than I thought I would. I definitely believe that being a mom is well worth all the grime, gripe, and grinds on the nerves.

Fresh Start Challenge Day 15: Fünfzehn

1. I have let go of the past. I haven't forgotten it but I have let it go.
2. I have helped many people along the way in my healing journey.
3. I have discovered my creative side.
4. I am not afraid to show my scars inside and out.
5. I am a mom to a wonderful little girl that runs away with my heart every day.
6. I have stuck with running even when I was alone.
7. I have learned to do the hobbies I love and wanted to learn.
8. I love my hair! It usually does what I want it to do.
9. My body is pretty flexible.
10. I have the ability to say no.
11. I only take so much then I call people out on their bullshit.
12. My handwriting
13. Seeing the world is being accomplished!
14. I am learning that Christmas is wayyyyy better than Halloween.
15. I am learning how to cook all kinds of yummy things.

Fresh Start Challenge Day 14: Bib Crazy

Faith is like her daddy in the fact that she is a messy eater so having a bib is a must. This idea above has saved me several headache ever since I came across one day on Pinterest. Just give a hook with the double sticky foam and wham where you need the bibs. I like having Faiths on the back of her high chair because we put her there a lot. It works out beautifully. This makes me a happy momma.

Fresh Start Challenge Day 13: Let's Go Fly A Kite

If you haven't figured it out, I'm a person that loves whimsical. Mary Poppins, Alice in Wonderland and the Tinkerbell Movies are my favorite Disney movies. Even if I don't like Tinkerbell the other fairies are amazing.

I desperately want a fairy garden. I am not one of these tree huggers that think carving a tree is mean. I would love to spend all day in the backyard building our fairy garden while drinking lemonade.

Also flying kites while on a picnic would be heaven.

Making our own water park in the backyard.

Anything as long as it isn't gaming or a movie or just simply going out to eat. That is so old and boring.

Fresh Start Challenge Day 12: Stronger

This song really shows what I was told and how I reacted. I was told by you that I was damaged goods that I was worthless. 

I might be damaged from your physically and I was mentally but I found people who have pulled me from your grasps and I am not looking back. Enjoy your time in prison. 

I can only hope that someday that karma visits you.

Fresh Start Challenge Day 11: Bacon & Cream Cheese Pinwheels

Crescent Rolls
Cream Cheese
Onion Powder

Garlic Powder
Bacon Bits

• Preheat oven at 350°
• Roll out half the crescent rolls. I like to roll my with a rolling pin. 
• Spread cream cheese all over the dough.
• Sprinkle onion and garlic powder all over.
• Shake bacon bits over evenly.
• Roll dough into log roll.
• Slice into 3/4 an inch slices.
• Place on a baking sheet
• Place in the oven and bake until golden brown
• Let cool and enjoy